Hooked secrets and highs of a soaber addict

Hooked secrets and highs of a soaber addict is a raw, witty and achingly human account of post-rehab recovery life in South Africa.
Ferguson, Melinda
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978-0-143-52815-9
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Title: Hooked secrets and highs of a soaber addict
Authors: Melinda Ferguson
Genre: Memoir
Publisher: The Penguin Group (South Africa)
2nd edition. Cape Town, South Africa, 2011
ISBN 9780143528159 / ISBN 978-0-143-52815-9
Softcover, 16 x 23 cm, 296 pages, numerous photos

Description:

This year I celebrate my tenth year in recovery, but if someone had told me how hard it would be at times to hold onto sobriety I am not sure I would have signed up to get clean. People often think that once you stop using the drugs or alcohol you are healed. In reality it's only when you've stopped that the hard work of unravelling the self really begins. People often think that the drugs are the only problem. That's crap. I/me/Melinda is/am my biggest challenge. The drugs were what I used in order to hide away from myself and my feelings. Y'see, it's as though the wiring in an addict is all messed up. It's like there's this huge hole in my soul and nothing and no one is ever gonna be enough to fill it up. And the more I try to put in things from the outside, the bigger that chasm gets. There are all sorts of theories about addiction, ranging from addictive genes to claims that the front section of our brains, the logical, wise part, is underdeveloped, making us 'instant gratificationry' about everything we do. Whatever the reason, staying clean and sober is by far the hardest thing I've ever done. There have been times over the last decade that I have hung on by the thinnest string, clawing my way through disaster after disaster without the use of a drink or drug. But, oh boy, how I have longed for the taste of Jack and the death-dream of smack and crack. There have been times when I have literally held a bottle in my hands and brought it to my lips, imagining how it could make it all better. Yet, somehow, I have stayed clean and sober. Hooked secrets and highs of a soaber addict is about my journey to fill that hole in the soul: the secrets, the lies, the deviations, the triumphs and the highs. Enjoy the ride!